One Year Ago

One year ago at this very moment, I was spending my last few precious moments with my loving husband. I was tired, full from eating a huge dinner, aching, sick of being on bed rest, and scared out of my mind. I remember feeling so loved by my husband and dogs and thinking all of this is about to change. Everything after tonight will be changed forever. Will I like it? Will I know me any longer? What kind of relationship am I going to have with my husband? How am I going to THAT going to come out of my body? Oy veh! So many questions...

....and a year later, so many answers. Not only do I like it, I love being a parent. Yep, I know that it hasn't really gotten tough yet, but I love my little girl more than I could have ever thought possible. And yes, I do know me--in a whole new way and it has been so good for me. As for the relationship with my husband--it has evolved into an even more beautiful marriage. He is a true partner, help mate, friend, Daddy, and my love. A girl couldn't ask for anything more. And well, THAT didn't actually come out of my body the traditional way, so that is that. Instead, I had the horrid experience of major abdominal surgery and the the pain that would not go away. Not fun kids. But you know what? I would do it again--but only once more.

This is the amazing face I get to see every morning when I get out bed. I am blessed to be her Mommy.